I`m back!!!
It`s been longer than a year since my last blog post. I got over it that time, didn`t really feel my life was worth blogging about. Not really sure it is now but I do feel the need to document this next chapter even if it is just for myself but maybe something good comes out of it for others as well.
If I am being totally honest life has been crap lately. Maybe it`s due to the shitty summer weather here in Estonia maybe it`s the fact that a lot of stuff has been building inside me for quite sometime now. Haven`t really felt the purpose of life. Doesn`t feel like anything is going that bad but doesn`t really feel anything is going great either but doesn`t really feel the strength to change anything either. I just don`t know how right now. I don`t have a goal, I don`t have any ideas how to make life better, I don´t know how to make my job more interesting and challenging, I am still single etc. All an all this sounds pathetic even to me but that`s how things are. I don`t think anyone has really noticed because I do enjoy being social with friends and doing different activities. Most of the time these days with my friends keep me off thinking about the reality.
Don`t get this the wrong way though, this is not a suicide note even though the life I am living right now is definitely not the life for me. I am too stubborn to give up that easily. I feel like I have fallen into a funk and I need to get out now. I feel like I need change but I am too afraid to take big steps so I am starting slowly. This is where the 30 day challenge is going to happen. It is actually going to be a yoga challenge but also I am documenting my days for the month of July and see if change is gonna happen during this time. I found this on http://www.doyouyoga.com/challenge/ and thought that since I have never really practiced yoga before and this challenge is on youtube with videos and instructions this is right up my alley. So challenge accepted. I am going to do the 30 day yoga challenge with the help of Erin Motz. I have always believed the healing powers of yoga. I am sure this will not be as spiritual as practicing real yoga every day but hey it´s a start for me and I am really excited to try it and I haven`t really been excited about anything for a long time now.
I could do this whole thing by myself as a soul searching thing but I feel sharing it with you will be a whole new experience and I have always been pretty candid about my life so why not. It could bite me in the ass since people are very judgemental about other people but at this point in my life I am not doing it for anyone else but me and I really don`t care if you don`t like it. My goal is to maybe inspire somebody or maybe keep you entertained but mostly my goal is to find myself again and this challenge is the first step. My tshakras are really closed, my flexibility is downright awful even though I am a fitness instructor so it will be challenging but hopefully something good will come out of it.
I am starting tomorrow on the 1st of July since I am a bit weird with these things, I like that my first day is on the first.:D If you thought you might be interested in the whole thing feel free to come along with me. Also follow me on twitter and instagram to see the progress or any additional things happening this month. It could be a slow sail or a hell of a ride.
Kris.
